Yeah right

I thought I could actually keep up with this blogging thing! HA! After the baby was born the house turned into a chaotic madhouse, complete with the resident lunatic (me). As if gestational diabetes wasn't quite enough, I had (have?) a bout with postpartum depression that made me an anxiety ridden bitch. Ok, so I'm an anxiety ridden bitch anyways, but it was infinity worse! So here I am, 8 months later, wondering where the time has gone. Away, that's where. And I'm now wishing for just one more baby... am I smoking crack!?! I think so... Cause clearly a 35 year old crazy mother of 2 (one 2 year old and one 8 month old) should NOT want another baby! But my friends are all preggo again, and it makes me long for that new exciting feeling you get when you know that you're gonna be bringing another little soul into the world. Fresh, new and not tainted by your rantings. You know what I mean? So while my heart is longing, my head (and my tired husband) tell me no way. Actually my husband's exact words were "if you say that again, I'm sticking it in your butt." Hmph. Nuff said.

In the beginning...

So here I am, a 34 year old mother of one (a 16 month old boy), expecting another boy in a month. What makes me think that I possibly have time to write about anything? I'm not sure yet... a fit of insanity I suppose. But I figure that this is a good way to get my thoughts down about this crazy life that I seem to have, plus it just gives me something to look forward to while on maternity leave next month. So here it is...

Like I said, I'm 34, mother to one, one on the way. Have been married, divorced, and remarried (for 2 years in Sept) and am now for the first time in my life truly satisfied. Which is to say that I'm not trying to figure out a way to off my husband and get the insurance money while staying out of jail, or trying to figure out a better career path, or lamenting about how I'm an old woman with no children and no prospects of them, or trying to find the "perfect" man (all of which have happened at some point in my life). I just moved into what to my husband and I's delight is a perfect house (with lots of imperfections that need addressing, but still...). We have a cat and a dog, both of which drive us crazy. But we're living big, and taking no prisoners! So there!

Anyways, so here it is, my blog o' crazy. I'll post stuff about the upcoming birth of Eli, our fix em up projects, my rantings, you know, fun stuff! Hope you enjoy the journey with me... if you're even out there!